hibernation.

Winter suuuucks. It’s dark and cold and full of holiday expectations and pressure to Be Happy and Celebrate with Family and Make Memoreez™ and stuff. November, December, and January are my least fave months and I am so glad they’re almost over. I feel like a zombie snail oozing toward the finish line (and exactly as gross as that sounds).

I’m tired. So tired. The kind of tired where you’re like, “Do I have mono or am I just really out of shape and antisocial? Is everyone depressed and experiencing SAD and staying home alone watching Netflix?” I think so, but then you see people jogging outside in shorts and it’s like, WTF?!

I told my therapist I was lonely.

“Are you getting out there and meeting people?” she asked.

“Yeah! I mean…I go to the grocery store,” I said. (That was not what she meant.)

I’m trying to remind myself of the beloved quote on my fridge: “Be patient with yourself. Nothing in nature blooms all year.” I’m definitely feeling as sad and moss-covered and spindly as the dead plants in my backyard. I know from a few long-ago yoga classes that this is the “yin” time of year, that winter is when we all turn inward and rest. It’s not yet spring. It’s OK to be low-energy and hibernate…right?

I’m impatient as always. Judging myself for being a polar bear. Trying to go on walks all bundled up. Then coming home and falling into a deep nap. Tea and curling up with my cat are so much more appealing than meeting strangers. I don’t have the energy for extroversion.

In the meantime, I’ll try to be kind and patient with myself. Nothing in nature blooms all year. 

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4 comments

  1. Oh, yes, I know this feeling very well! I like to go thrift shopping, where I’m near people, but not really interacting. I also like lots of alone time, reading, sleeping or watching a movie. You aren’t alone, at all. Take care of yourself, and do what you need to feel happy in your head.

    • Thank you, Sheila!!! Thrift shopping is a great idea. Glad you can relate and thanks for the warm and kind reply!! ❤ ❤

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